kinda weird lately. first, Nkauj Iab is gone and i miss her dearly. when we are close i am at ease and excited all at the same time. now that she is gone, im kinda floating around. but she will be back the july 13 which isnt too far away, so i am happy for that.
then there was the SASC Summer Institute. Dope. this was the best year ever. even though we had our issues, such as a a flood setting off a fire alarm, which disrupted our dinner and a few other major issues, we still came out on top. as for our mentees, Dope. they were a great family this year. im really glad they stepped up and spoke out and shared their lives with us. i was touched by their honesty and we ended the summer institute with a great feeling of hope for our world. real talk. like i tell everyone, i dont like to measure our success by the number of people crying at the end, but damn, it was hard not to be touched. and yes, the first to set off the deluge of crying was none other than my amigo who worked as a mentor. i cant put my finger on it but, it seemed to me that we (mentors, volunteers, coords, and mentees) some how caught off guard by how we could come to love our mentees in such a short amount of time. it was especially evident with a couple of friends. perhaps that along with nkauj iab being gone and graduating and being unemployed is why i am feeling quite sad. i honestly dont know what to do with me life and that scares the shit outta me.
so much of my life had been focused on just getting to college and along the way, love and the summer institute have become MAJOR parts of my life that i dont know what to do once i have found all of those dreams. or maybe im feeling this way cuzz im twenty-muthafuckin-six?! i cant call it. boof, i need to be held.
con amor,
mikeonerskee
